Melting

I think the only motivation I have to work now is to work for my friends. It has become totally pointless for me to go on searching for CVs to chalk up the numbers, except to display one last good "wayang" show.
Eternally convinced that transitionary periods are surreal and precious. Would love to buy out my notice if it costs $2.45 rather than $2450.
I will not let R****** X***** earn anymore money from me! Hahaha...
I wanna go for Fancl Facial!!

知足长乐

I feel eternally grateful for the things I do not see myself as deserving.

A public holiday right when I needed it; shopping and having a good meal; understanding that God loves me more than I realise.

I am thankful that I am gainfully employed even though I do not see myself as any better than a lot of unemployed persons. I am thankful that I've got great colleagues whom I face 12 hours daily. I know it is by His grace that I have 贵人 dropping by my life as I journey through it. I know I will more than just survive.

I had wished that I was still a student, waking up late and scrambling my way to lecture - when punctuality and attendance are actually inconsequential. Then I hear friends talking about uni "hell week" and I'm suddenly thankful everyday is "hell day" for us and I'm now more than used to it. (Kinda miss hell-week :p)

I'm happy with my BB, and how I can blog on the move. It really is my sole point of contact with the world outside of the work-home-church dome now. I can't wait for church camp, I can't wait to have a change in schedule.

I am so thankful that in every change, I see the hand of God doing something amazing. Life is as great as how you see it to be.

Its sad when you have unbeliever friends and you really really wanna
save them, and letting them get to know Jesus.

But its a lot more sad when you have Christian / Catholic friends
telling you things that you can immediately discern as the lies of the
Devil. i really thank God that He put me in a place of learning, that
i learn the Truth each week. I know we need to defend our beliefs,
defend God and His ways. But its so much more frustrating when you are
trying to defend Him to believers! (because we know we must show
restrain, and not fall into the trap of argument)

I believe that Faith is one thing that calls for absolute. If you
believe in God, you also HAVE TO believe that there are no other gods.
its a ..... PACKAGE. I just pray that my mind and heart be protected
from such lies that sometimes seem so... philosophical and true. At
the end of the day, philosophy is just another human-construed notion.

One of the most taken-for-granted, enviable things in life, is a functional family.

I used to tell becca I dun love her - I only love her family and I'm using her. hahaha!!

Ha ha ha

"When I decided to go into sales, I thought I would be making shitloads of money. I ended up with only a load of shit."

Really respect good sales people.

Take me.

I've had the most extreme of thoughts lately. I thought life was a lonely proposition, where we continually find new anchors at different phases of life, never realising that we are, in fact, like Tarzan swinging from tree to tree to tree.

We THINK we can't live without this or that or him or her or them. But no. We always adapt. We find new pets, new friends, new jobs, new family, new meanings. In this manner, we see how alone we really are: every other aspect just an accessory on the barbie doll. It is kinda scary, this..... Insane proposition. We are each a boat and not on the same ship!!! We float according to the random wind of change, and before you know it you're floating with a group of strangers you never knew 6 months ago.

Talk about the intricacies of human relationship.

I believe what I want to do is to NOT stop this float. I dun wanna affect the plans God has for me. I want to be a vessel. I believe what will be, will be. Not because of "fate" or chance, but because Life was what He intended, and what He intends. So many things I've believed in and fought to keep, social engineering, and all that rubbish stuff - nothing works! I don't wanna live life being a slave to fleeting relationships. I figured humans hurt each other without even intending to. Only when we trust in our Lord, and allow life to float, can we move on and on and on.

I have no answer to life's random and fleeting nature. But I have my answer in the most innate and safe relationship everyone can have. I pray everyone will get to know Him personally, and believe in His relationship more than they do in any earthly ones.

Peep peep

I love people-watching.

I love to see how a guy and a guy can discuss abt everything in the world, when they are in fact so similar its more like seeking perfect agreement than discussion.

I love to see how a girl and a girl can sit behind the said guys wondering how come they never meet the good guys. They decided to talk about who has better dress sense instead. They seem happy.

I start to wonder how the dynamics would have been if the guys each sat with one of the girls instead. I was imagining things.

Next table, I saw two guys and two girls, chatting about..... Well, its pretty silly when its this combo because its usually nothing more than gossiping. Or talking abt aspirations. Or abt one member's romantic escapades. Whatever the case, it was blatant that both the guys had "romantic aspirations" for the girl in white. The girl in black was gossiping away - unaware, or trying her best.

Then I was at a cafe. Group of 6 or 7 or 8 of them. One of them suggested buying presents for some other one. 5 or 6 or 7 of them obliged. (Read: obligated) I sniggered. I'm as cynical as I remembered. Their dress sense sucks, by the way.

Then I watched Expendables. Beefcakes and meatballs. Stallone is still Rambo. Arnold Sch****gger is still California Governor. In the cinema, I noticed how many girls were watching with their boyfriends. Its such a dumb guy flick that I reckon it must be them repaying their boyfriends for how they made the guys watch vampire-werewolf-gay-flick 2 months ago. Funny how all the old men in Expendables have bigger breasts than the young vampires and werewolves.

And I came out of the cinema and suddenly every guy looks puny. I wonder if stallone can walk through the exit door. Then I felt like buying gadgets (I love gadgets) and I went to apple shop. Didn't buy no iPads. Didn't buy no iPhones. None were in stock ANYWAY. Then I saw this malay uncle buying iPods. Once he decided on the model, he asked for FOUR of them. I was wondering if he was buying for his children, or his wives.

I saw this girl who looks super like carol wongs, until I saw the legs and I thought they needed pimple cream. Wongs has like perfect ones. Anyway she was cute and the boyfriend was a girl.

I love people-watching. :)
"I removed the irritating Blackberry signature, and replaced it with MINE!"

Eat your hearts out

For those who have always dreamt of leia kissing.... Well, leia. Hahahaha!! MJ I know u like. :p

Be.

"We shall pass this way but once

All the good that can be done, do it now

For we shall not pass this way again."

I gotta admit it really hurts big time to feel so alone.

Ouch. Haha..

"...the art of losing myself, in bringing You praise..."

I'm gonna get super cheesy：

"世界上最远的距离，末过于你在我身边，而不知道我爱你"

Vonda Shepard ~ Vincent (Starry Starry Night)

i feel so tired i just want to give You a hug.