The perfect gift.

If santa had been busy, and brought me my present onli on the 8th day of christmas, i dun blame him at all. Even if he was late, i understand why. He brought me the PERFECT GIFT in this new year. Year 2004 shall be marked by this, he brought me a dream. The sweetest in my entire life!! The dream felt so real i even slapped myself in it, and i didnt wake up. What did santa bring me? He brought yanzi to me, a different yanzi, a warm yanzi, literally. It was so good i wanted to pen it down immediately after i wake. I can never afford to 4get this dream.

This is how the dream goes. I was walking along some forrested area. And there was a pavement on it. Somehow it felt like a deja vu of our land expeditopn during OBS, and the scene looked like some track in Ubin. Nevermind, dun realli matter. As i look up, i saw someone limping towards me, she was obviously injured, a sprained ankle, her right ankle. This dream was sooooo real i can even remember her shirt and her everything!! someone was helping her, or rather...trying to help her. It was a little children, and he was supporting her on her left side. Which of coz is the wrong method as it would bring about further aggravation to her sprain by putting more weight on her right ankle. I noe first aid, and first thing i did? i went over to offer help, and told the boy i take over from there. As i look closer i realised she was YanZi!!! I was feeling abit shy, i mean she IS afterall a real BIG superstar!! Albeit a petite one. I could feel my cheeks turning red, as i ask, "oh...yanzi...are u feeling alright? let me help you" This is a me that cant seem to find my words, as those of you out there who really noe me, you would know that in real life, i would have been much more eloquent and said something that wun sound as "duh!~" But well? She was also feeling a little shy as she realised that i must have been her serious fan. She tried to reject my help, and claims that she's "alright, i think i can handle" But The very next step she took showed everything. She was in so much pain it almost melted my heart. How could i let this go on?!! I couldn't care less anymore, and in true first aid principle "dun care who ur casualty is, help is more important" I pulled her right hand around my head and i was using my shoulder to support her from under her arm. This should take out most of her weight from her right side. (i want it to be as detailed as possible! can u believe i actually have time to think thru all this even in this perfect dream?? this is incredible!!!) After doing so, i told her to step her right foot on my left. as we walked in unison. I was thanking god i learnt first aid, but not becoz i got to come into such close proximity wif yanzi, but becoz i was able to help her when she was in need, and not walk in such pain all the way. I figured i was realli in love wif yanzi. Anyway, we carried on, as we walked on, the shy me began to take a back seat, as i became more relaxed and we started chatting. All this while i was making real sure she was in as little pain as possible. I could actually feel my heart hurting eash time she makes a "Tssssssk" and close her eyes in pain. This went on for quite sometime, until we finally reached her destination, which looks surprisingly like OBS camp II, where we had our land expedition. But like i say, the scene no looker matter, she was all that got my attn.

At the camp, we stopped and i got her a seat. Den i tried massaging her ankle! yes!! Dun say its molest or taking advantage of yanzi!! Coz all those thot were realli not even present in my mind then! This is surprising!! All i thot of was trying to make her feel better. Just as if she was my darling. Somehow, the miracles of dreams got her foot back to health after an hour or so, and she was all ready to leave. Here come the sad part. Oh. And did i mention i was with the odac'ers? Hmm....as she was to leave, she shook everyone's hands, thanking them as well...

i was sad beyond words. All that was in my mind was whether i was just dreaming. I slapped myself, but i stayed in my dream. Yanzi saw that and walked over to me, planted a warm peck on my cheek, and said, "hey. u're not dreaming. I AM yanzi." I replied, "but dun u oredi have Dennis? Why are u kissing me?" she smiled, "Its just a real big thank you. Its ok so long as it doesnt giv u fantasies, coz i dun have it. It was an innocent kiss." Her smiled continued on....I somehow felt soooo nice. Soooo touched.

It was at this time that June walked over, and said she wanted to hug Yanzi, but somehow their arms were not preperly positioned and the hug was short lived. 2 seconds perhaps? Anyway, after which i just walked over, looked yanzi in her eyes, her beautiful beautiful eyes, and actually walked forward to hug her!!! This hug felt so warm. As if it was real, i could still feel her heat as i am typing this!! It felt comfortable, and we held in that position for quite some time, at least over a minute. It felt so nice i never wanted to let go, but i knew she was something i could never keep. And weiliang's advice shot right thru my mind. "giv her up. You can never haf her, its time to be realistic". Our Hug was so tight i had my chin comfortably lying her shoulders. My head was to her left. I could almost smell her. This is a god given dream.
"Is this the end, yanzi?"
"Everything must have an ending."
"can i have ur contacts or anything? I promise to keep it only to myself"
"silly...Why bother to hold on to something so distant?"
"but..but...u mean we cant stay as frens? i love you so much yanzi. I realli do"
"i noe, i can sense it, But I believe we'll have a chance to meet again. Perhaps u can look me up when i have autograph sessions? Den i can chat wif you. I'll remember u no doubt"
"yanzi i want you to noe that i realli hate for this to end. Do take care of yourself yea? And always noe u have an undying fan somewhere out there"

Somehow the conversation went on, but it's becoming blur even as i type this out. Something i'm rather certain, I was oredi tearing when i said all these. Not realli crying like a baby, But tears trickled. I mean, that WAS the end, and u can actually imagine my pain. The above conversation was all said in the privacy of the hug. In silent whispers. It was so clear a dream i can remember she was wearing a navy blue t-shirt. It was cotton, yah, cotton! as it felt warm and comfortable as i hugged her. Or maybe it was her that was giving the warmth. The feeling indescribable.

As i walked her out, we joked on, about how i loved her sexy voice and how i kissed her poster everynight! She was laughing non stop. But as all good things end, she soon reached. Looked me in the eye one last time, such beautiful eyes, and said "thanks"

Well? i awoke to find myself on my bed. Shld feel sad, but i wasnt. I just wanted her to noe that..."It realli was my pleasure. Thanks Yanzi. love ya foreva..."

Thanks santa for this.... perfect gift~