every year, during the 10th to 11th week of the year, a great depression takes place amount all 16 year olds. they either fail to make it to their desired JC becoz they did too badly for their o levels, or they went to a too-good JC jus becoz they did too well for their o levels. or the most incredible one...they get into a course or school and they feel like changing it becoz they suddenly feel like being a doctor than be a business women. so everytime during this year...everyone wld be sad. no matter wat results u get or where u get posted to or even if it doesnt concern u at all. for that matter? i AM sad.
xiao hui's leaving. xinni's leaving. merissa's leaving. valval's not coming. (hey! she let me call her that ok? hahas...sounds so nice right?) and of coz those who noe me well (ie those who get exactly 40 marks for my quiz and surnamed Tee) will understand why i am sadder than i shld be if only taking into consideration the 4 above.
my heart is bleeding. i've always been sad once in a while before. but often times its the mind sending out signals that something unpleasant has happened and that i'm put at an disadvantage at that moment. thus the so called "sadness". After feeling real sadness, i term those as merely "unhappiness". when u get hope, ur adrenalin rushes and blood pumps eagerly into ur heart. when the hope is diminished, the heart thus bleeds more than ever. so much so i cant write on anymore. really wanna thank biao for this command. i jus got a blood transfusion. and my heart will go on and on.
gods of postings have failed me. and i look to other gods of modern world. (decided to go read american gods. becca once introduced it to me. didnt really bother.)
got a gay phone. but who cares. shall sms u peeps my new number when i feel like entertaining calls again.
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