new bloggie

i realise that i am someone who needs a lot of assurance from the ppl that i love. saying this, yesterday's conversation with hh did make sense. indeed, i have said things like "why u always gimme that kinda face" and things like "why u always never reply?" in the past. but because i did not say it to w*nn*e, nobody actually took note and no one claimed that i am a "duh" person because this kinda Qn shld never be asked in any circumstances - "because it is by the person's choice and most probably she doesnt like ur face" (so says hh). But unknowingly, i have been saying those.. showing how i ..... cannt accept that the person doesnt like my face. not like this is ANOTHER egoistic/narcissistic post, but i'd very much prefer it if the person tell me some kinda reason so that at least i can remedy the situation. (i mean what am i supposed to do if the person is jealous of my face?? -ok comic relief, but pls stay on the serious note- then i realise there's some things that i cannt accept ppl saying, no matter how jokingly it was meant to be in the first place. this is a little cliched, but sometimes the things ppl say without thought (or evil intent) is actually how they really feel abt a particular issue. Carol actually has no faith in me. and that basically sums up the previous paragraph. maybe she's joking, who noes? but i am affected, that, i know.

oh wells... nvm la... ok wat shall i blog abt tonite? oh yea! got a new bloggie up again. its called "A Supposition of Everything" at http://obviouslyoblivious.blogspot.com. its basically something that i noe hong hui has been wanting to start, a blog abt our daily conversations - which inevitably would have some kinda theories in them. Chris says that i have too many theories all the time, and that it hinders the functionality of my everyday life, making me overly sensitive and critical at times. oh wells... but i still think this blog is gonna be pretty interesting once the theories start coming in fast. there's simply too many that i seriously hope we dun miss out on any gems. heh..

oh. anyway... can-hunting came to an official stop today. the so-called perfect can wasnt all that perfect afterall, but today i found something even better. thinking back... it was really funny all the ideas that went thru my mind during my 21-day "obsession". from CANnisters to CANdles to CANtona... i'm getting "CAN-CANcer"...

talking to denise... hong hui... and reading some was-funny-but-now-nothing-more-than-some-gibberish blogs made sure that i was blogging s-l-o-w-l-y.. Such that by the time i reach this paragraph,.i'm over what carol said 2 hours ago. and i realise that it was silly to feel the way i felt in the first paragraph. i think i still love Carol. she probably jus made a bad joke. hee.. i'm so petty at times. no wonder she gets irritated. sorry darling! if u're reading this, jus noe that i really totally respect u, and hugs, if any, would be mutual. no late-night face-touching or what-have-you.. tatas... i'm off..