today as prologue

i voyeured thru the hearts of ppl this afternoon.. reading blogs after blogs after blogs. blogs that i once followed -but later lost interest; blogs of friends that have now been reduced to friend's friends - and the "links" being offered becoming more real than any links of friendship in real life; "newer" blogs or blogs that i just managed to get access to recently - but still being able to read thru the entire archive. (which led me to think how friendship also works this way, that once u decided someone is close enough to be worthy of trust, he/she will eventually get to know all about ur past and not simply present. it works backwards... so each time a friend becomes close, he knows all ur past, but not necessary future UNLESS he/she keeps up -like reading the blog. ok wat am i rambling abt here?? move on..) must have been a LONG time since i read thru ppl's blog like i did today, because for a long period of time the onli blogs that i read were those actually linked to mine. and now i'm beginning to wonder... are people REALLY that complicated in their thinking as their blog seems to be suggesting? or are they complicating their own thoughts? complicating themselves? because there's always the myth that complicated stuffs are quite the equivalent of sophisticated stuffs - and many still believe in it. hence some people try to make themselves complicated in the absence of actual sophistication? ok maybe the human heart is not that scheming yet, but could it be a sub-conscious behavior of people who lack attention and hence the Mind trying all means to justify the "fact" that its only because "people don't know them well enough" (its becoming a cliche!) or maybe its because blogging allows for some kinda structure in thinking, like penning your thoughts down - when it should never have been. Fine, all the professors in the world agree that brain-storming is good, and that writing your constructive thoughts down could help. but then its a different case when u're talking abt feelings? it'll turn out to become a case of "organised rants" and u can even see the "thought development" sometimes... simply put? blogging causes people to FEEL more than they shld because they now have the ability to brain-storm their feelings, which i believe is actually something of spontaneity. (spontaneity defined: done, happening, said, etc because of an impulse from within, not caused or suggested by someone or something outside) So when feelings are allowed to be sorted out and boomed out of proportion, u get ridiculous cases of ppl trying to "decide which of the five guys to go out with on Valentine's Day and that not knowing who to give the chance to is causing endless pains and agony, like myself (herself) being pulled in all direction to the five corners of the world... ... ... God help me."
Tell me you don't feel like killing her. Go on, tell me and i'll believe that there really IS compassion for stupid people in this world. and she expects God to help her. of cos thats jus the extreme cases, many other mild ones like contemplating suicide jus because today isnt friday, and etc etc ... why do i not feel a tinge of sympathy for these ppl? because i think they are -indeed- trying too hard to be sophiscated. Too bad my blog does not allow profanities. *giggles* enough for today.. tatas.. oh quite a funny read, considering bush really won in the end and reading this in retrospect makes u wanna laugh at ppl who acts sophisticated. http://www.stone-bamboo.net/stonebamboo/archives/000127.html