things change, ppl dont. i start to wonder how two person can be so similar, too similar they cant live in peace with each other. i start to think of the wonderous range of things that used to be similar, shared, exchanged. its amazing how - despite all these - that one single difference can render all goodness void. and the biggest irony of it is, even the so called difference is actually a similarity. when u spend too much time together, everything gets in-sync. i believe readers know that 2 women living together would experience, after some time, a synchronised ovulation period. likewise, when u spend alot of time together, eating the same thing, doing the same job, having the same fun, sharing the same topics and thoughts... over some time, even getting diarhoea is something thats "in-sync". so why is it even a wonder at all that when everything is being shoved to a bottleneck, that two persons would fall in love with the same person? its basically very normal, very natural. very... inevitable. if u havent experienced it, its probably not because u are some kinda noble man that can tell right from wrong and jus "give way". its simply because u havent experience such intense "synchronisation" with another person. u probably didnt have a very good friend all your life. you probably think u have good friends, think. but its not your fault, u simply didnt have a chance. when all elements are right and granted with a time to do it, two can really become too one. i am so perturbed these days by this thought. maybe its never too right to be too close to anyone at all. when u cant find the middle ground between hating and pretending, you end up lost wanting neither. u try to ask someone out for dinner. but u try not to think abt it. and when occasionally u feel like shitting and u see a five star cubicle, u cant help but want to reply to that msg.
similarity kills. if u wanna look for a girlfriend look for someone totally different from you. not using this as an example, but recently i had this experience with a particular zhang ziyi lookalike. she's pretty, no doubt, got kinda a determined assassin look to her eyes, helped by her long lashes. and a sweet smile. great to be with, cheerful and hyper as well. but then after a while i realise we're bloody arguing all the time! hahaha not quarrel, but sometimes it ends up bad. Hmm... den we'll laugh it off. hahahas subsequently i learnt that if i sit back and listen to her we always end up the better. i remain skeptical at times, but at least we spend good time. anyway, she's gone till december, so i shall spare her from being identified in my blog.
but i digress... talking abt getting in-sync. not everything sync-ed is as good as a ipod-itunes sync. imagine when everything u do can be analysed by another like reading a bloody novel. imagine u understand the person so well every move he makes has a deeper meaning to you. its fuel to hate. imagine him knowing your next move jus by putting himself into your shoes. imagine yourself losing all element of surprise, and u jus cant get on top for once. imagine yourself being cloned twice over. i wonder if twins imagine themselves being wedded to their brother's wife. and it works both ways. so both twins wanna be wedded to both wives!!! hahahas ok that was jus comic relief. such a sync wasnt THAT blatantly showed until recently. when both chooses to cut something loose at the same time. its ridiculous.
how can two person so similar not think abt how each other feel?
according to the devil's dictionary:
selfish; adj.
being selfish to other ppl's selfish needs.
i appreciate that two can be so close. really. even if things dun turn out fine in the end.
how similar are we? how different are we? all the others, shut up.
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