because of you..

i love this sweet-sad song.

Have you ever heard a song so depressing that it injects a certain sweetness in you?
Have you ever been afraid of being afraid?
Have you ever tried to think beyond the obvious, only to feel depressed when your mum calls you on your phone and you're brought back to reality?
Have you ever heard this song?
This is not my song - all you cheap asses who steals movie-liners! especially YOU mj. YOU YOU YOU!!

in an altogether separate incident, i saw ice_waterfall on MSN. its been at least 6 months since i last saw her virtually. 2 years since i saw her in skin. i sent her a short msg on MSN. she tried to reply... "ice_waterfall is writing a msg..." Then, GONE. she's no longer "typing a message". and then "ice-waterfall appears to be offline, messages you send will be delivered when they sign in". suddenly its just gone. everything was back to where it was. that few minutes of disbelief and anxiety suddenly gone. could she be trying to reach me as well? where could she be at this point in time? rebecca hasn't heard from her. Christina hasn't heard from her. SO ITS NOT JUST ME. i suddenly feel a chill, and my goosebumps stand. could she be desperately trying to get to us as well? Could it be, that MSN is faulty, and she -alone in japan- starts wondering how come she can never seem to get thru to us? it feels like a murakami-inspired situation through and through. as our worlds get a rare opening, a msg sent thru, and then immediately the portals are closed again as the Gods of the two worlds realised their slip-up. they will be more careful from now on. ice_waterfall, reach me if you can. i swear i have tried every single possible way already. *the MSN sounds again. msg received. i jumped. its just cong jing. damn cong jing.* Gosh, i miss ice_waterfall. i miss ice_waterfall!!

dictionary [dot] com says...
cli·en·tele (klī'ən-těl', klē'än-) n.
1. The clients of a professional person or practice considered as a group.
2. A body of customers or patrons: a restaurant's clientele.

anyway, today is chinese new year. the MRT is cramped with indians. i went to my grandma's place, and then went out with jamie cuz. its quite boring during chinese new year if u do not have 30 relatives to visit. i've decided to go clubbing with the guys tml. its a nice time to do so. so basically i did nothing much today. it wasnt much of a bloggable day, apart from some sightings that equal any loch-ness encounters. speaking of loch-ness, i was with jaime at Ubin weeks ago when we were looking into the quarry from above. a caucasian family was beside us. suddenly there were large bubbles in the water. "LOOK MUM!!!! LOCH-NESS!!!! LOOK!!!!"

"Because of you

I never stray too far from the sidewalk

Because of you

I learned to play on the safe side So I don't get hurt

Because of you

I tried my hardest just to forget everything

Because of you

I don't know how to let anyone else in"