hit by a sense of loss

there are some friends in life that you just cannot afford to lose. i stop to think and know that its supposed to be very shallow, considering that its been nothing more than 59 days. But i still feel it. i cant help it! i'm actually hurting, and this time it is not an indulgence of emotions. its just a senseless, POINTless sadness. My rational, self-preservationistic mechanism is malfunctioning. i guess you've unknowingly became important to me.