really?

exams is in a few weeks time. i dun feel prepared. the most scary thing is i dun feel like i care anymore. 2.35am in the morning blogging... when i have classes at 8am tomorrow. is this the kind of attitude that society despises? it is the kind of attitude i remember i myself look down upon. i used to call such people unmotivated losers. what do i want so much? all my life i try not to be a loser, but i get jammed right in my face at my own backyard. the one place of refuge, no longer a haven. where then do i hide? sometimes the rubbishy feeling just comes back, and i wonder if she's having fun doing this to me.

am i really such a bad person to you you you you you and you? which of you havent once loved me being on YOUR side. (except dogface, he's a legend)

fuck righteousness.

yea i said "fuck", like you don't.