R.E.A.D.

i always take guys as friends - no good, no bad.

my good friends are all girls.

i treat all my good friends ... very good.

people think that i'm trying to make each one my girlfriend. (fucking stupid)

when i treat you well, why dont YOU misunderstand that i'm scheming.

when the whole world bully you, and i was being accused of being OVER-PROTECTIVE of you, was i trying to make you marry me?

just because i shop for stuffs, and because some people THOUGHT i'm being too nice, should i then stop being nice to my good friends? i didnt stop for you, i will not stop for another as well. she deserves better than that. you people are fucking provoking me. all just because i'm nice to the only person who stood by me.

i'm not a chick magnet. i dun SUCK people to become my girlfriend like some. EVERYONE that comes along just BECOMES my good friend - as if they themselves orchestrated it! so why are u all so concerned??? its not as though i do alot for things to become the way they are today. certain friendships cant be explained, it just HAPPENS! (like how someone can suddenly dun love another person. when i still care the world abt her. - now who's the fucked up one?) before u shoot another person, ask yourself if you are being unappreciative in the first place. i touch my heart, i have never let any of my good friends down before - yet. on the other hand, i DO get into a whole lot of trouble for each that came along.

the whole world knows that i love carol. the whole world knows that i love my dear becca toh. the whole world (secretly) knows i love alby. now i want the whole world to know i love joyce. i never wanted issues after issues, i kept really quiet for the past few months, even joyce commented my blog is "overly general". when gossips arise in school and everywhere else, i hid in my hole and spent all my time on ONE friend. yet now i feel pressure dragging me out of that hole, "because joyce dun BELONG to me???" you people are just fucking ridiculous. just listen to yourself.

those who hate me after u read this, i hope u die. i mean it.