blue pill or red pill?

we all expect the hero in the movie to take the red pill (to know the "truth" of things), because thats the only way the show can go on. it is the more "heroic" thing to do, and seemingly more common sensical as well. however, on a second -more rational- thought, i would say that given the hindsight, i would take the blue pill, fall back into bliss - self-perceived or not - and continue living the life that i already know thus far.

If the blue pill means i won't know anything, and the red pill conversely mean that i would know i don't know anything, then my choice lies with blue. Of course, Socrates has argued to great effect that it is far better to know of our ignorance than to insist we know anything. i am okay with admitting to the fact that we have an imperfect knowledge of this issue or that, but i am not prepared to KNOW that i do not know anything about my life, or even my existence. If it is regarding such a major issue, i would rather be deceived all my life than to live out my life knowing that i do not know anything.

the obvious problem with the red pill is that, instead of promising knowledge of the true nature of things, all it REALLY does is it de-construct whatever we have known thus far, and fail to provide an alternative answer. instead of getting revelation, doesn't the red pill throw us into further confusion?

what i want is either to know, or to not know that i not know. not somewhere in between for the rest of my life, especially since (according to the movie) there is no turning back after i take the pills.

it is oft said that "ignorance is bliss", which i have to clarify how it reflects the situation here. By blissful "ignorance", what is meant is TRUE ignorance, or the state of being totally unaware that oneself is devoid of knowledge. It is not to be mistaken with being aware that oneself is ignorant - in which case there would REALLY be no case to be happy, much less feel blissful. Hence, if the blue pill promises that i wake up to my Life, without any memory that i was even being offered the pill the previous night, i would take it. However, if the blue pill is nothing but a sweet i eat, and subsequently be forever conscious that i am denied knowledge about Life, it wouldn't be Much different from taking the deconstructive red pill, would it? =)