Yes, i do.

This is to clear up ANY remnants of doubt from my friends, her friends, and rebecca toh herself.

i love rebecca toh si nee like no other on the face of this planet - accept that. Always did, still do. and likely for a long time to come, into the un-forseeable future. ok maybe i have not cried over her before, but that is NOT proof that i love her any less. i love her SO MUCH.

if this is going to jeopardize any potential suitors that i am destined to have, so be it. there is nothing in this world more beautiful than telling the person you love that you love him/her. (note the tense, no point telling the person you loved that u loved him/her then!)

rebecca and i...

-shares more random memories/issues/comments/thoughts/acquintances than most of our friends assume we have.

-are actually quite "in each other's life", though we dun meet as much as the phrase suggests.

-depend on each other alot. we just like to deny it, to each other, to ourselves, and to others.

-are comfortable with being unglam to each other, in appearance, in mannerism, and in language.

-just know. the rest are just ignoramus.

i started typing this last night after i called becca up to say "something" and then hung up. and then she called me back to say "something" and then hung up. haha... its SECRET. but anyway, i fell asleep typing halfway. and i'm continuing this after just coming home from her place. i finally got Orthello to accept me!! i take it as a personal achievement. Orthello is actually quite nice once she reckons you're not a threat to rebecca. hahaha... and snowman rocks big time as well. its not so bad being a salesman afterall. 2am is a nice time to be together.

i held in my left hand, a present for someone. a heavy and cheap present that looks like thrash - i'm darn confident it will be loved and cherished. on the other hand - literally - i was fiddling with stuffs, looking for a present. i had no idea whatsoever. "this? that? fuck, how would i EVER know? how can i get a sincere present when i usually make them to be better than ANYTHING that can be bought. how can a non-personalised gift mean anything more than just a lucky draw prize?" i just realised how far we are now. i suddenly really wish it was your stuffs on my left hand.