living

it is by no coincidence that my blogpost title corresponds to becca's - i'm with her now. starbucks, company, ONE cup of mocha frappicino (because we dun believe in overpriced coffee. we shld've just BROUGHT our starbucks cup, in fact.), silent conversations, becca's beautiful eyes - just the calming serum i need in my life.

life is all about being with people you love, finding people you love, being with people you love, finding people you love, being with people you love... and of course - Love. sometimes you love the people, sometimes the people love you... doesnt really matter at the end of the day - i guess? we all need to love somebody, we all need somebody to love us - much as we deny it. we are but creatures of love.

a few recent revelations: we do not always want to forget the hurt that we've been dealt. either for fear of not being strong enough to hurt in return when its our turn to, or that we'll forget how much we must have loved to get hurt in the first place... we sometimes want to hold on to a past so much we're afraid of talking abt it - ironically - because we're afraid that frequent mention and recounting would make the feeling "bland". Because each time we talk about it, we feel less and less hurt.

and about friendships. whatever social theory that i've had, everything crumbles when it comes to Omi. she just made the world more incomprehensible, much more interesting.

and about work/school. although i've never believed much in mugging and trying to get the perfect grades, i am trying to do the best that i can this semester since i'm already stuck in this SYSTEM anyway. i am still lazy, i still bum around watching VCDs, still pretend to study half the times i have lecture notes in front of me, and still hope i can get by the week without completing every single tutorial. but at least i pray harder now. =X

i suppose... life is about the silent times when we breathe in everything around us.

Nothing, is ever the same one year from now.