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the hardest thing about any blog post is actually coming up with a post title that isnt too stupid, emo, or wannabe, or pretentious. its kinda stupid that before u even write your post you hafta think of an title that u needa make sure u do not get further and further from as your post progresses. kinda interesting isnt it? i bet half of you face the same problem (unless you write it diary style and write the date as the title =p )

anyway, inconsequential.

R just DRAWS ideas out from deep within me. (as if all of you dun already know who R is) simply BEING with her makes EVERYTHING better. its like the skies are skier and the air is airier. and somehow i dun feel the need to be happy - just to... be. i guess thats how married life feels, to a certain extent. R and i, we skipped that dating phase and stumbled upon "life as married". when u find yourself loving another person more and more each day for the past 5 or 6 years... you know you've stumbled upon something more than "regular customer".

when you spend your entire vacation at one shop, giving free labour, having free ham and cheese omelette (my favourite), making friends with the shop's other regular customers, STAYING OVER at the shop (when its not a 24hr shop), knowing the number of steps that lead up to the shop, loving.... you know you're either a loser or you wanna hit on that really cute shopkeeper. for my case, i'm most fortunate to already know that shopkeeper. when you walk to the shop unknowingly, do more dishes there than at home, visit the "japan house" near to that shop more times than you visit the toilet per day, you must be doing it for something greater that "just-friends-ship". (because we established that friends are not as important as they are usually commercialised to be, among the MANY things that we establish each day..)

somewhere along these few weeks, i also understood that Life is very much like studies - everyone tries to do well. Try. but we dun always do. sometimes its best to understand earlier that we cannot always choose to do something we like and choose to do well at the same time. ideals versus ideal-results can be mutually exclusive at times, and if we fail to recognize that, we're either stubborn or we are losers who can accept mediocrity.

ok enough for now.