today as prologue

and i shall continue updating my life after yesterday's hurried post. i went to watch alfie alone after that. (how sad case right? but thats always the case these days. nobody loves ivan anymore.) but well... i was glad i went to watch it alone though, cause i actually teared watching alfie. yesh u wun believe it considering its actually a comedy for the first 45 minutes or so. in fact i found it really interesting at the beginning when he shared quite the same philosophy as me. "why get tied down when there's actually so many girls out there waiting for u to go love them?" (well... that WAS wat i used to think as well, but its changed actually. more so after the movie.) ok maybe i shld talk abt the movie first. firstly its M-18 and it has 20 seconds of nudity in it, but thats totally besides the point, because i believe that this movie would still be M-18 even if they edited that part away. this whole movie has got this warped theme about it and if not for the great directing of the .... erm... director, getting Alfie to talk to the audience straight for the entire movie in 2nd person view, most ppl would find this movie unacceptable. jus short of a porn-flick. wells.. right from the start, Alfie would look into the camera and start introdusing himself and explaining to the audience why he lives the kind of life that he is living. den he goes on to have sex with almost every pretty woman that he comes across, quite the don juan i must say. (and jude law is the new brad pitt i tell u. ok make that tom cruise. he's got such pretty eyes, and he really knows how to use them as a charm totem or something. he always throws u that glare, one of warmth, yet indifference, den finally letting out a smile "when the opposite party is least expecting it" -as he puts it himself- and tada! another bright future is sacrificed for the pleasure of this cassanova. Ah... how i admire him at the start of the show, when he starts having a secret relationship with somebody's secret mistress. (like hello??? that's already the mistress? he actually managed to make a person who made the man betray his wife betray the man in return? ok enough of his exploits, i know many of u would be saying by now how he is similar to me actually, except that he shags the women, whereas i dun. (Grr.... i hate that label that i've been given as a flirt. like TOTALLY LA!!! since when have i been a flirt???? and funny thing is??? becca thinks carol is one of my flings. and carol thinks becca is one of my flings. NONE IS!!!! u both dum dum you!!! i REALLY REALLY must introduce the both of u to each other! before u both start accusing me of more things. them again maybe not. later both keep talking behind my back. den exchange secrets with each other. den i'll jus die..) but i digress... oh speaking abt "Alfie", later the story took a turn. Alfie started realising that there was no aims in life. its actually a gradual change in attitude, and in the process there was this period of self-delusion when he still keep insisting that he would not change his way of life, but inside he was already regretting. He realised that he was ruining people's lives - including his own. then there was this internal struggle which jude law handles so well u begin to wonder why he is even an ACTION star. he shld jus become the next hopkins or smth... *hopkins is my all-time favourite psycho. ppl who havent watched "silence of the lamb" shld jus kill themselves. (erm except carol, rebecca, candice, and my dog. i always forgive this group of "people". they're my pet friends. er... hahahahs... where's the pun?! where?! where?! ) * ok back to "Alfie"... (ppl wondering why some ALFIEs are "ALFIE" while the others are simply ALFIE, ask carol or rebecca or candice. hahas...oh, not candice - she's in chiangmai. oh, not rebecca - she'll take 3 hours to reach her phone because she lives in thomson and her phone is in chiangmai. oh, not carol as well - because she'll take 3 hours to tell u the difference between chiangmai and thomson, and she'll say chiangmai can find rebecca and thomson can find candice. ) *prepares to duck flying pens that carol totally loves to throw at ppl that she wants to whack but out of reach*

ok this paragraph is a no link paragraph thats written to apologize to the 3 person that i joked on in the previous paragraph. that was absolutely uncalled for and if u ppl want to call me and scold me right this moment, i'm prepared to face the music. (hey! facing "carol" is facing the music!!! kekez) hahas... oh oh! candice cannot call me! long distance call very expensive for my bill !!~ hahahas no la jus kidding. i'll be jumping up and down if i actually get a call from candice all the way from the thailand. k back to that never ending "alfie" story...

the way i talked abt alfie with all these craps, all readers are bound to think that ALFIE is crap and not worth watching already right? haiz... i'm really doing the show great injustice man... because later on in the show, he starts trying to make amends, onli to realise that there's really no turning back on most occasions. for once, Alfie was serious, but while he got forgiveness by many, he was really left with nothing in his life. and the show ends there with a changed Alfie and one wonders if he could really find enough courage to settle down one day. of cos the show is better when u watch it, and u'll understand my sense of loss for Alfie. (maybe its really because i could relate to him.) ha.. some parts of the show really did knock some sense into me. "when u think u're getting everything, u're actually getting nothing." so pls hor u flirts out there! stop flirting liao la! wats so fun abt it??? i NEVER get it. *kekez* i've never tried wad? *kekez* (actually i really dun!!! but how come even i myself am making it sound like i AM a flirt?!?!?! God, help me.) hahas....from now on whoever calls me that shall be down-graded to become a "second-class friend"!! ur "place" in my heart will be shifted to serangoon! *oops!* so anyway i cried la, and any movie that can make me cry is a good movie. go watch. or if u want a crying feast, go watch HOTEL RWANDA.. i havent watched it personally though.

and before i know it i've been blogging for a blong period of time. (nb. "long period of time" is relative, relative to nothing in particular. "blong period of time" is a generally acceptable period of time that one shld spend on blogging. it is also relative, since "blong" is actually quite long, but it is relative to a conventional standard and it allows for better and more accurate gauge of time spent -wasted- blogging.)
*sometimes i am amazed by myself. amazed at my brilliance. amazed at how i can make up so much justifications for a simple typo error. blong = long.*

OH SHIT!!! i realise that there's something i really really need to do tml!!!! so i think i better sleep now! anyway the time now is 3.03am, saturday morning, friday after midnight. hahahas but i think i'll most probably post this only tml morning when my brother opens his bedroom door. shit shit shit. i absolutely must do this tml, or i wun have much chance to do it already!! its been number 1 on my to-do-list since january and i have barely 7 days to do anything now.

oh chris. i wanna chope u on 22nd feb.

and i cant believe it. i'm having my reunion dinner on the 6th Feb, which is like next sunday??? ah thats bad. its jus not a good day. because thats the day someone really important is returning to singapore and no its not kuan yew.

i miss carol. miss having ban mian with her. its so hard nowadays.

we have so much time everyday, does it take so much to think of some of the more precious friends in our lives each day? which is why i spend the few moments lying in bed everynight before i fall asleep jus remembering the smiles and laughters of these people. and sometimes i tell them. hahas i just told becca toh a few days ago, "being a friend is not a responsibility, it's a privilege". so i dun actually expect ppl to do the same u see? yups. in fact most ppl dun la. siao! lie on the bed of cos sleep la, how to tahan not falling asleep?? hahahas...

ok stop blogging le. ta