today as prologue

how can i not mention abt NS when i blog 2 days away from enlistment? hahas... ok so i'm going in on friday. and i'll miss my bed, my sun yanzi posters, and the Dog.. (which we now decide to call "xiao bai" cos she's very white for a jack russel and her ENGLISH NAME is pepper. and "bai" somehow sounds like pep?) ok i dun really get how we came up with the name, but now the dog's called xiao bai apart from her other monikers. (eg "stupid dog" , "dumbo" , "smelly ass" , "ooi!" and "ugly hair" to name a few better and more civilised ones.) *yes THESE are the more civilised ones already!!* hahas readers wun imagine the joy of having a dog and calling her all the cute names. and even more difficult to imagine is the amazing ability of my sister-in-law to find a new "more fitting" name for the dog every few days. hahahas... but we love the dog. i'll miss some ppl, but there are ppl whom i had thought i would miss terribly but whom i've since not seen for more than 30 days and apparently i'm still alive. hehs... i'll miss my hair the most. and speaking of which i still have 3 bottles of GATSBY left, which will most probably expire by the time i have enough hair to use them. den again... its not really important. hahas!! maybe i'll like having no hair and become the next stone cold steve austin - only that i dun wear a black underwear and walk around the whole rink. o.O?? wat else will i miss? ah but of cos! the firing range! i dun see myself as someone who can actually shoot, so we all shld thank God if no casualties come out of "stray fire" during the course of my military training. but i'll enjoy shooting tho! HURHUR!! somehow the sound of gunshots might help alleviate the emotional pain of knowing i can never take over the world. muahahahah!!~

paragraphing: its very important.

ok i didnt come to blog abt NS today, since that's inevitable i shldnt waste energy typing abt it. kekes.. and finally i can balance the male-female friends ratio that has become so tilted since i got into beautiful St Andrew's.. -er- i dun mean the school compound, they simply have beautiful..... contents. hahahahs!!~ ok i'm incorrigible.

anyway i realise something really dumb. that ppl actually put their girlfriend's photo in their wallets!!?! i mean.... there's nothing wrong about it lah, and its actually a very sweet thing to do. BUT! u mean we cant actually put other ppl's photos in our wallet except those of our partners????? GOODNESS!! I HAVE A PICTURE OF OSAMA IN MY WALLET and he's looking really handsome in there. -.- people might easily think that i'm GAY! hahahaha!!?! ok jus kidding actually, hehs... when i look at that osama i think of someone else. she's BUSH and apparently we're going after each other!!?! HAHAHAHA!! ok sorry candice!! didnt mean it THAT way. hahas... (will u even read this in the first place? hahahas!!)

wait, the dog is making alot of noise.

ok done. doggy business. i'm jus wondering, why is it that guys get all emotional when they're about to go into NS? (i mean i do as well, which is why i'm typing abt this.) hahas... maybe is the reluctance to be transformed into another monster that they themselves might not recognise in future. maybe some ppl just want to stay as children. maybe i do as well. i still want to believe that ninja turtles live in the sewer and that Godzilla is swimming somewhere off the coast of japan, waiting to reappear and fight alongside Ultraman when monsters try to take over the world. the children's world is a much simpler place, amazing - but simple. i can actually remember myself sitting on the red couch many years ago watching "the land before time" and biting my nails as i watch in awe.. and after that making my mum bring me to the library to borrow "dinosaur books" and visit science center to "see real dinosaur". (well... JE library and science center IS within walking distance afterall.) those were the times eh? and i remember myself particularly loving books which speculate about the possible existence of lochness monsters and the Big-foots. children simply love to believe, don't they? but once u've crossed the line of innocence, hope is often duped as mindless naiveness. Ah. the world is so tilted, so filled with ppl wanting to take over the world when they know they cant. (because i AM gonna be the one, obviously?) Hahahas... and now, who knows what the next phase of "growing up" might do to us?! ugh! make me young again! hahahas!!~ i dun wanna be boring adults who can never appreciate childish fantasies! hahas my DAD actually complains that "paying 8.50 to watch 'turn left, turn right' is the stupidest thing one can do, because all u get is $4.25 of it, flipped over. " and he adds the punch line, "its dumbly nonsensical". *jus shoot me*