blog job

i've been feeling an inherent desire to blog. a niggling want. a neglected and expired need. something which i used to do everynight, now becoming a forbidden fruit. freshies and weirdos reading my blog makes me uncomfortable to a certain extent, and i was -kinda- hoping that if i stop for a certain matter of weeks, they would start to deem my blog as inactive, unexciting, and basically a waste of time to try to click on the link!! (but if you are reading this post now, apparently i have failed to do so =X )

if i had a blog job, like xiaxue, i would probably have been sacked already. but when i hear/read certain shocking comments about how my blog is not written by the "ah beng" we see in school everyday, i turn schizo and my real-life persona starts having an issue with my alter-ego bloggerself. haha! but yes i AM ivan. the same one you see in school everyday. note point of clarifications. ah bengs DO NOT spot RED hair, they have lousy bleached hair - that shouldn't even be compared to my double-bleached ultra-cool whitish uber.blonde hair when i had that a few months ago. AND. ah bengs do not have blue color contacts. ah bengs wear thick black -or white - plastic framed spectacles because for God knows why, that is apparently Cool now. this is an Apology for the self defined. (please click here and look at meaning number ONE if you do not know the meaning of apology. its not purely for sorry, so stop telling me you forgive me, banehneh. hahaha)

ahem ahem. i forgot. i ought to be more amiable now. the post starts from here -->

what a good and sunny day! great weather, wind blowing into my cosy ZENy room - which many claims looks like a themed brothel, by the way - with some world tribal music playing on my wallplayer. Dog trying to eat my honeystars, after she finished HERS. 223 friends on facebook. a hurting elbow that i cant straighten. an ever-trusty laptop. a sms coming in every few minutes. Dog trying to act like Godzilla again. and i'm trying to blog about the beauty of my life. F***. i cant do this. this is so not me. hahahahahaha!!!

byebye. go eat ice cream already =)