The despondency bill.

Feeling so so much better after a movie-on-my-own, wif a no-need-to-share-popcorns-wif-nobody and a laugh-my-freaking-heads-out-without-having-to-bother-abt-image. This is wasteful living, but seriously, at least its life. This is such a no worry, no hassle, no dating, no agreement-to-adhere-to, no fussy choice of movies, of time slots, and of seats kind of movie that i've found missing from my life. This is me, in case u still havent figured me out yet. All the compromise and waitings is not my cup of coke. I did that to not let others feel that i'm a psycho-moto-moron, not so that i would feel being taken for granted, which i am now, which i am all too often lately.

Anyway, this is the despondency bill of this afternoon. At least thats what i'm going to use to hide the secret of mood fixing. call the ICAC (Ingenuine Care And Concern) for all i care. This must have been wat have happened. Seeing the J1s, i realised how time flies. (well? actually... time flows. read previous "renaissance of time" to get further insights) I realised it would be soon before another year sneaks past me under the elven cloaks and me screaming too late at the realisation of my loss of college life. and most imptly....the loss of dear becca, weilin, and everyone else. All things will come to pass, i just wish that i could be passed on together as a whole unit instead of having an artificial wedge put right between us after this year.

i realised i cant realli deal with change. if i'm in US politics, i'll most probably be with the conservative Republicans. I can be Bush, no prob, he's a republican! But first thing i'll do is to pull out of iraq, and instead use the manpower to aid iran. But not before i shoot a nuke into m'sia for their cockiness towards my free trade agreement partner s'pore who never fails to suck my ass. But all these not before i empty my country of nukes on china and stop the Chinese's childish hope that they'll be the DRAGON on the rise. a nuke shld remind them of their sheer numbers of ppl living on sweet potato and drinking pee. DRAGON?? Unless they gas-chamber their own country and do a-la-hitler style holocaust on the CHINA PPL. But all this not before i sodomise tony blair, afterall he's been trying to gay me so obviously! shall let him have his wish! BUT BUT most imptly, i'll shoot "ivan" first for even thinking that he is me for one second!

A crappy me = a normal me???
at least thats the msg i seem to get today when i was rather quiet and some gal actually saw that i had something wrong. Well? u were right. But i dun do confidence when i lost definition of the word "confident" somewhere in you. Pls do return it to me, intact. hahas... or u can keep it till kingdom come.