of online shopping

this is such a great site!!

http://casualpoet.bigcartel.com/

i mean... they sell really really COOL stuffs that u cant find ANYWHERE else? (ok maybe u can, IF you're THAT good) the service is prompt as well, so if u see anything artsy that u like there... (maybe it makes you feel more "arts fac" or something), just try to make yourself feel cooler. haha..

there're only 2 persons in this world that the selfish me can be nice to without consciously trying to be nice to. one of them is nice to me, and the other is rebecca toh. HAHAHA!!~ ok i'm joking i'm joking!! i wish i could live to blog like ....

• arthur miller (if he kept a blog, with those SEXY SEXY curses!)
• jaime. her blogging style is one of a kind. but i could never survive more than a month of it.
• my dear becca. because she has changed her blog, and theme, and style, and writing style SO MANY times over the past few years, and yet each one being so independent of the previous you would NEVER know it was from the same person. her maroonish blog with 3 pictures (one is a dustbin) as the heading and and background music of t.a.t.u's 30 minutes was simply sweet.
• XX
• myself when i'm funny. its amazing most of the really memorable jokes i've ever written on my blog are about tragedies, often ending with the word "fuck". http://terribler.blogspot.com/2006/11/of-tatu-amazon-and-dot-com.html

i dunno why i stay up till 2am in the morning. everynight. my bio-clock is as screwed as screw can be. i used to have a tight tight tight tight schedule. with appointments going as far as 3 weeks in advance on average. (this happens when you're spending time with jaime. for reference, i'm meeting her on May 16 2008. HAHA) Now, i'm trying really hard to pack myself. anything - really. work, regular school, dinners, gatherings, huntings, chilling, etc. but i can never seem to fill myself up to the brim. this is worrying. i cannot imagine people living life like this, having "holes" in their schedule, when they won't know what they are going to do when these "holes" approach. its a scary idea. having "rest" or "reading" or "VCD at home" on your schedule is one thing - at least you know its planned respite. but its just scary when u dunno what you're going to do this weekend or the next or the next. i am re-investigating my concept of "constant-companionship". i think i really need to use one.

".....no one is ever history...."